Its been a while since I bothered to even touch this ridiculous thing, but I've been really busy with work lately.

( Private to Rodolphus )

I hear that theres been some drama at Hogwarts, Miss Bryant is after me? Someone might want to stop her before someone gets hurt, not that I'm the one who will be hurt...

I'm going to go have a nice long bath I think,
Bellatrix.

Life is so tremendously quiet lately, its irritating, but it wont last long. Rodolphus and I have our own house now, if you've not heard, which means no more of Rabastan rudely interrupting when I'm busy with Rodolphus.

The dark lord has plans, glorious dark plans. Rodolphus, Rosalie and myself have an assignment to do when we return to fetch our things. I can feel the dark magic in my blood already, and its hardly even begun, its thrilling.

Theres much to do,
Bellatrix.

You know, there are a lot of perks to not being trapped up in Hogwarts, one of them being the amazing amount of time I can spend with Rodolphus, though it can be a problem when he has slight issues over something I've done. For the love of Merlin, it's Lucy, Rodolphus, I wouldnt touch the bastard. We've gotten ourselves a place of residence, it would seem, I'm glad, as much as I love Rodolphus, staying in a house Rabastan has open access to is not my idea of a pleasure ride. Not to mention he walks in when I'm wearing very little. We still need to get our things though, so we may go back soon, as I need the clothes and such in my trunk, among other things.

Rodolphus and I had some fun the other day, and we appear to be having more fun then certain mudbloods and blood traitors back at Hogwarts, ah the God's are kind to those of us who are decent.

Meh, I'm bored, I'm going to find Erato. The stupid owl.

Happily expelled,
Bellatrix.

I feel a little better tonight.


Turns out Rabastan makes a good male gorgon, though the snakes didn't like him much. Apparently he used to have a little crush on me, I think I made him a little... uncomfortable... I was getting him to tell me something but I was in my lingerie and right up behind him. It did get him to tell me though.


Rabastan is stupid,
Bellatrix.

Oh fuck.

Thats two times I've been crucio'd hexed badly in as many months. I'm in Rodolphus' room at his parents house currently, I just woke up, I hope he gets back soon. I had to condjure this diary here, I need to get my stuff from Hogwarts, we're kicked out I think, I don't know I'm too tired in great amounts of pain to care.

Last night was heavenly. Well perhaps not heavenly, heaven doesnt tollerate such things as those Rodolphus pleasures me with. He is wonderful, absolutely wonderful and really knows what he's doing. Now if only he would come back and make me feel better.

Cissi is engaged to that blond pretty boy, it's enough to make me want to scream. I'll be related to Lucius bloody Malfoy. Joy to the world. She had a nice ring though. She shouldn't have been dancing, shes hurt, idiots.

I need to talk to Rodolphus when he comes back, we need to work out where we're going to get a flat at, I'll be happy to be rid of those blasted seperate dorm rooms. Despite the fact I ignored that and spent my nights with him anyways.

We went to see the Dark Lord this morning, Rodolphus came to me and the Ball last night instead of fixing his mistake, I went with him to the Dark Lord this morning, last night I was his pleasure, this morning his punishment it would seem, I got tortured and he had to watch.. I suppose it's fiting, he did come to me to give me pleasure instead of dealing with his buisness, and in the morning I got pain. Though  I avent told him quite how much pain I'm in, it's bad, really bad, but I won't tell him, he was saying he was sorry... he never says that. He's gone off to murder the bastard that got away, I had hoped he would be back by now though.

I'm going to have another nap now, I'm too sore tired, Rodolphus, wake me up when you get back.

Love wounds,
Bellatrix.

I love Rodolphus.

More later.

Busy.

Very, very busy.


Oh and it would seem we have most likely managed to get ourselves kicked out.

I feel like a woman again,
Bellatrix.

I HATE SIRIUS, I HATE SIRIUS, I HATE HIM.

Yes Sirius, you did your job. I hate you more then ever.

Words cannot even DISCRIBE how much I loathe him. Fucking bastard. I swear the moment I get the chance to murder him I will, and you can QUOTE me on that, I don't care. Azkaban would be worth it to have him dead. The bastard almost made me cry; I REFUSE to cry in front of any of them, at all. Full stop end of story.

I waited up for Rodolphus, he didnt come. I skipped classes and slept all day seeing as I didn't sleep last night. Rodolphus, I'll be somewhere in Slytherin dorms or common room, please come find me. I really need you.

Speaking of Rodolphus, I turned him into Killer the pink bunny and he knocked my pumpkin juice on my lap, which evenually soaked right through to my knickers.

I'm going to have to make it up to him.


Tiredly yours,
Bellatrix.

Well even I will admit that was one hell of a weekend. Though I spent the majority of it in the castle because Rodolphus was busy with some very important buisness studying. I saw him on saturday; he had to cancel his plans for the moment because of the studies, it's a pity, and he still won't well me what he's up too, I suppose it must be important enough to him though. And darling; it is not my fault I'm a tease, that seems to be a family trait.

Sunday was uneventful, well except Narcissa failed her assignment miserably and is probably going to get herself killed had the shits about something that I didn't even do and stormed off before I could calm her down. Oh and of course the Hogsmede attacks, if Rodolphus haddn't have hurt Andromeda I would be very proud of him though no one died; aside from my sisters baby barely anyone knew about anyways. Seeing as Alice decided to tell Rodolphus this morning afer breakfast I might as well say it, yes I did go to Hogsmede AFTER the attacks, not before or during; Potter stop it, I didn't touch anyone of those stupid people. I found Andromeda actually, in a terrible state. I really need to hex Alice for informing Rodolphus of that though.

I went to talk to Rodolphus after I made sure she was safe; I can't believe it. He did that to her, there are two people in the world I asked him not to touch; Narcissa and Andromeda. I slapped him, though we eventually made up and came back to the castle; it was eerily quiet here but we almost ran into Ted Tonks and Sirius, they mentioned Rodolphus, I wonder what they were up too....Either way after that Rodolphus and I went back t the common room and I got changed and then we talked for a while in the common room then we went to bed. I missed sleeping curled up in this arms, I really did. This is useless, I give up, I'm going back to the person I am, Andromeda is just complicating things. He said he did it for me, he missed his old Bella, well he has me back now, perhaps he'll leave my sisters to me for once. Though if she told anyone; including Alice, Alice knows something but she successfully caused trouble between Rodolphus and I so he kind of forgot she was there.

Lucius is home tonight, I spent the better part of an afternoon yelling at him so he would come back here; Narcisssa is driving me crazy, I mean shes my sister... but when she misses Lucius, for the love of pete she really misses him.

If you would excuse me, I have to send a letter to mother, where is erato; that blasted owl.

Oh and Potter, writing Bellatrix is a crazy whore really isn't that original, I've been called worse by plants.

Also; Potter is under the impression I may be getting kicked out, being head boy has gotten to his head it would seem.

Back to who I'm meant to be,
Bellatrix.

Well, I havent been writing in here again, but oh well. Other then my cousin being murdered nothing too interesting has happened. James seems to handle pain well, though he he isnt much to duel, stupid boy.  Abby Martin is a little sweet heart, I know her parents. Perhaps I should go give them a visit, Abby has always liked me anyways. Remember James?

Rodolphus is busy, he said he can't follow through with his plans this week.. pity I was looking forward to spending time with him this weekend. I hope he'll be okay... he forbid me from going with him... But duty calls, and as he so aptly reminded me, buisness before pleasure. I think I'll go now, Lucius is being a pratt and watching me like a hawk. I have to meet someone shortly so I'll need to preoccupy him. The last thing I need is for him to try and crucio hex me or something.

Oh and I picked out my Ball gown; well Rodolphus and I did. He enjoyed that, I think. Though he reminded me I'm  dreadful tease.

Dutifully yours,
Bellatrix.

The past few days have been interesting to say the least. Rodolphus agreed to come home for Christmas with me, I have given him a choice of which room he wanted to sleep in, he said mine would be fine(and that does not suprise me in the least mind you). Rodolphus also has some sort of suprise that he is very protective of, and believe me when I say I've tried to get it out of him, but he is very stubborn and strong willed when he feels like it, and this seems strangly important. Since when did he turn me down when I wanted him? Merlins beard I wish people would make up their fucking minds.

Narcissa is upset with me I think, because of something Rodolphus has asked me to do, and I can't say I'm happy with it.. but I love him and I know he means well and I couldn't turn him down.. Oh I don't know what I'm going to do... I can't break my word.

Strangely bored in bed,
Bellatrix.

(Just because I was bored I recorded it lol. go here to get it)

Well the weekend has come and gone once more, and much to my sorrow Rodolphus has been dreadfully busy. It's quite a put off. I'm going to asked to be re assigned, I would almost beg.. but a Black does not beg unless they have to. Or their lover deny's them.. but that's a whole other story. I paid a visit to some friends now dead muggles on the weekend, that was quite amusing if I do say so myself.

My darling cousin seems to have either been cooped up in detention or a mile under homework, so does Potter, for neither of them have ruined a day of my life in over a week. It's almost a pity, they are quite amusing, they think I care about the little problems of wee gryffindors.

I've got all my study work done for this week, perhaps I can find Rodolphus and go for a walk or something.... I'm sure he'll think of something interesting to do.

Hogwarts is quite lately, it's most peculiar, it makes me wonder why. I suppose it's all this homework though, it has to be something. Even Lucius hasn't harassed me lately, and where both in the same house and death eaters!

It's late, I'm going to bed. To Rodolphus's actually, I wonder if he's back yet. I'm going to hurt his brother I swear I will.


Hogwarts is overly quiet,
Bellatrix.

((ooc: sorry Jamie, I know I hadn't updated in a week. Bella hasnt been doing much *hides*..on a side note, Come to the dark side, we have cookies!))

Well I found Rodolphus, well it's more like he found me really. I was in the common room and he came for me. We talked a little bit though we didn't have much time for talking, we were a little busy... I did talk to him in the morning, he isn't mad at me, which is good. He was a little disappointed though, I think thats worse.

Narcissa suggested we ask Rodolphus and Lucius if they want to come over for Christmas, I'm sure I can convince him without too much difficulty, Besides I will get a chance to be around him more if he comes, that will be delightful. I don't think he seems to like the idea of leaving me alone either, he was acting slightly jealous when we where talking in the morning, he seemed to think I would let one of the other boys touch me, or that that liked me, which they might but they are frightened of me half the time so, I dont know what he is concerned about. Either way he couldn t keep his hands off of me.

I think I'll ask the Dark Lord if I can go with Rodolphus when he goes, I can't live like this so much, I miss sleeping in the same bed as him... it's so fucking domestic of me too...

I hear the Gryffindors got back from the funeral today, which means my peace and quiet is over no doubt. Ah well, perhaps I could annoy my darling cousin, I hear he's dating that girl whose father died.

In other news, Lucius is happy. He is how sole owner of the Malfoy fortune. Now if only I cared....

Wondering if I should give a damn...
Bellatrix.

I don't know what I'm doing, I can barely move at the moment, it hurts to breathe... it will wear off, effects of crucio I mean this hex always do.

Rudolphus keeps disappearing after classes are over, Lucius is being an arse, I can't find snape I'm going to murder the arse hole when I get my hands on him. Oh I don't know...
I'm going to lie down if anyone see's Rudolphus send him here.

In pain,
Bellatrix.

Rudolphus where have you got too? I think I'm going insane....


I told Andromeda I know I shouldn't but she's my sister and oh it's all falling around my feet... I cant stand it... he will punish me I just know it, he finds everything out... Wonder where snape stashed the sleeping potion.

Missing you,
Bellatrix.

Well I got a letter from father today, it seems all is well and I don't seem to have left anything at home anyways.

There are some whispered rumors around the place, people saw that muggleborn Tonks and that cow of a sister of mine exiting the Astronomy tower rather early in the morning. And if that's true, you know what that means? It's a disgrace, as if she wasn't enough of one already. I think tomorrow I may just ask Tonk's what he's up to, I could.. persuade him, I'm sure.


I think I'll go talk to Rudolphus, relieve him of homework.

Infamously yours,
Bellatrix.

I wish mother didn't insist I came here this year, but at least I get to be close to Rudolphus. Other then me calling Potter a nancy boy today was pretty quiet. There isn't much going on, though in transfiguration I did 'accidentally' turn one of the mudbloods into a baboon, I didn't think he would notice the difference really. It was more of an improvement.

Boredly yours,
Bellatrix.

Hmm, well today wasn't too bad. I spent half of it looking for Rudolphus, he was here though. Cordelia and myself game down to the Slytherin common room to chat when I had had enough of running into potter and evans for one day, the year has barely started and the this is tense enough you would think Potter and I had been at each other for months instead of days, those days have proved quite interesting, even if he does become a bore after a while.

Anyways while me and Cordelia where talking I decided I needed to see if Rudolphus was in his dorm, and Cordelia was more then happy to go with me. Cordelia is like that though. Anyways Rudolphus wasnt in his bed, but I lay down for a bit, I was tired I didn't sleep well last night, I was waiting up for Rudolphus, I was worried about him. He had some special business to attend too. Cordelia was having fun with another seventh year and I drifted off to sleep.

It would seem rudolphus showed up after I fell asleep, because he woke me up by kissing me, I didn't realize who it was at first, I almost hexed him from here till kingdom come! Though I realized who it was and well, just lets say I had an eventful night.

I haven t seen much of Cissi today, though she found the conversation between potter and I dreadfully amusing.

Sighing with contentment,
Bellatrix.

Evans is taking points off us for calling her a mudblood, someone is bothered. The truth bites, doesn't it?

Laughing in your absence,
Bellatrix.